My thoughts aren't very collected this morning... I actually think i'm getting sick, if my sore throat and headache mean anything.
These are verses that have been running through my head today:
"My tears have been my food, day and night," Psalm 42:3
"He was despised and rejected by men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief;" Isaiah 53:3
"Am i not more to you than ten sons?" 1 Samuel 1:8
"I have forgotten what happiness is; But this I call to mind and therefore I HAVE HOPE: The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 'The Lord is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore i will hope in him.' The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him... For the Lord will not cast off forever, but, though he cause grief, he WILL have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for He does not willingly afflict or grieve the children of men." Lamentations 3:17, 22-25, 31-33 (italics and emphasis mine)
"Give us this day our daily bread," Matthew 6:11
Erin,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your words and my heart continues to break for you and Blair. You don't know me, but I recevied the email notification from Camp Eagle last week to be praying for your sweet family. I have been a sponsor for our church, The Lakeway Church, at summer camp for the past 4 summers...in fact, Camp Eagle is the highlight of my summer each year. I wouldn't miss it...one of my favorite places on God's glorious Earth.
I can't even think how you and Blair even begin to cope with baby Gwen's loss and I know you draw so much comfort from His Living Word. I know you cling to the hope you have in Christ Jesus, and I know you rejoice that your precious daughter's body has been glorified and she is with our Lord and Savior. But I also know it still hurts. You have to wake up each day and make the choice to get out of bed, while the rest of the world continues to go on...unaware and unphased by the horrible hurt that you have in your heart. There is no love that is the same as a mother's love, and for that, my tears flow for you.
I can't think of a better home you have than at Camp Eagle to grieve. God has given you and your husband an amazing body of Christ to lift you up, love you, encourage you, listen to you, and pray for you when you just don't know how to pray. I am thankful that in the midst of this unexplainable test, God has surrounded you with such a wonderful body of believers. Camp Eagle staff members are just precious, and I am so thankful you have them.
Please know I pray...our church prays...there are so many praying for you and Blair. Your heart will always feel a void with the loss of your child, but our Lord will renew, repair and heal...in His perfect way and in His perfect time, that sometimes we just can't understand. Cling to Jesus, sweet Erin - His loving arms are wrapped around you.
Christ's love and mine,
Lauren Creath
Austin, TX